Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Good Life
Tonight I feel happy. Most the time I feel happy which I think is a wonderful blessing, but as I get older I start to feel sad about things that used to not make me sad. Like homesickness. I went 2 years of college, and 4 months accross the ocean from my family and I never felt homesick.I mean I missed them, but I never had that ache in my chest where I felt like I was going to burst up in tears. But here in Kansas I miss them like crazy. I miss my windy town of cheyenne, and all my friends, and I cant just go home for the weekend to see everyone. There are those days where I feel the tears coming and I just want to cuddle w/ my mommy. I had to grow up a lot this last year. I have been a full time working girl....and by full time I literally mean sometimes 12 hours a day at the office. I just feel like I have really become an adult. I have bills to pay every month, I have a budget to live on(that I am not good at following) and I not only support me and my needs, but the needs of my husband. So sometimes I just want to be back in high school where I didnt take things to seriously, played to much, didnt have a bed time, and was always around my family. Now I am turning the table around to say that now in this stage of my life there is so much to feel good about. Yeah I work A LOT, but I love my job and I am learning so much and I feel so accomplished at the end of the day. Yeah I have to pay bills every month, but I have wonderful parents who always tell me how proud they are of me for supporting two people. Then I get a little suprise in the mail from them.($$$$$);) Yeah I dont get to see my family as much as I could, but that makes the visits much more special. And Yes I support the needs of me and my husband, but I look at him everyday and feel so gratefull that he is in my life. He has become my absolute best friend and the sunshine on my sad dark days. His smile just makes me melt and his laugh makes me feel googly inside. I come home everyday excited to see him at the front door waiting w/ his arms ready for a hug. Every love song I hear on the radio his face pops up. I love sitting on the couch after a long day and watching Gilmore Girls with him and our puppy. I love knowing that he will always be with me and that we have many more memories together! There are so many things to look forward to. So despite the fact that I get homesick and have a lot more responsibilities, I honestly feel like I am living the good life. I heard this song on the radio today and it was the inspiration to my blog. Here are just a few of the verses
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I love this post. I like people like you who look at things in a positive way even when it seems a little tough sometimes. I like happy people. And I like how you said Ben makes you feel googly inside. It made me giggle.
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