Stop This Train

Last week I hopped on a plane and went to Cheyenne to spend a few days with my mom and dad. It was such a fun week and a much needed break from work/infertility/bills. It was nice to be with my parents and have them "take care" of me. We shopped. went to movies, watched TV ate yummy food and just had an amazing time. It was very hard last night driving to the airport. We shed some tears and my heart hurt to leave them. I didnt want to go back to being an adult. It was fun playing a kid.
While I was waiting to board my plane I was shuffling through my ipod John Mayers song Stop this Train came on and it explained my situation to a T! Here are the lyrics.

"Stop This Train"

No I'm not color blind
I know the world is black and white
Try to keep an open mind but...
I just can't sleep on this tonight
Stop this train I want to get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
But honestly won't someone stop this train

Don't know how else to say it, don't want to see my parents go
One generation's length away
From fighting life out on my own

Stop this train
I want to get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't but honestly won't someone stop this train

So scared of getting older
I'm only good at being young
So I play the numbers game to find away to say that life has just begun
Had a talk with my old man
Said help me understand
He said turn 68, you'll renegotiate
Don't stop this train
Don't for a minute change the place you're in
Don't think I couldn't ever understand
I tried my hand
John, honestly we'll never stop this train

See once in a while when it's good
It'll feel like it should
And they're all still around
And you're still safe and sound
And you don't miss a thing
'til you cry when you're driving away in the dark.

Singing stop this train I want to get off and go home again
I can't take this speed it's moving in
I know I can't
Cause now I see I'll never stop this train

 

I just love that song. It is so true. We can never stop time from moving forward and we just kind of have to go w/ it. In the long run we will look back at times in our life and think "why was I worried about such and such, I should have just been content"

It is hard to be away from family and I dont think thats something you can just get over, I think it will always be hard even when I have my own kids. But I am thankful that I have such a strong family that I love so much. In the show Downton Abby one of boys is homesick and the maid told him that he is homesick because he comes from a happy family and thats nothing to be ashamed about! So yes I get homesick a lot...but I have a happy family and I am thankful for that!